0 CommentsHi everyone-
I'm relatively new to 9rules, so please bare with me.
When I first joined 5 or 6 months ago...I was in a different 'place,' a different 'state-of-mind,' if you will. To be blunt, I behaved like a DICK!.
So, first and foremost, I sincerely apologize to those of you I wrote insensitive remarks to your response's. I hope you can forgive me.
Which brings me to this topic: HARD AS NAILS.
I was watching HBO the other night, they were showing a documentary about this young man, I can't remember his name, but he started a youth ministry called 'Hard as Nails.' Here's the link: HANM.org.
What this man is doing is wonderful! Very inspiring, to say the least.
I've been lost for the past 7 years. My Mom was murdered in front of my eyes, in 2001. She was my best friend and my buddy. She gave me solace. Then, one day, she and what I knew of life, were gone...in the blink of an eye.
My father was never part of my life, neither was my brother. I've pretty much been on my own since age 16. Payed for my college education, living expenses, car, etc. That's my life thus far, in a nutshell.
So, after I lost my Mom, I guess you could say I lost, misplaced, or completely abandoned my faith. I've been 'faithless' for most of the past 7 years.
While watching this documentary, I wished someone cared that much - like this guy - when I was in need, that they actually did something like this. You'll have to see it to fully understand.
If you get the chance to see, or have seen, or know the Hard as Nails Ministry, could you - or would you - share your thoughts and feedback? It would be nice to know what others think of him. Check out the site, although it doesn't give too much information. Thanks in advance.
And thanks for taking the time to read this...if you do. It feels good to get all this out, air out the skeletons that have been consuming my soul for 7, long, hard years. And to not feel pain, nor cry, when I think, talk, or write about my Mom's death. Something's changed in me, and I can't explain it? I can attribute it to one person. And thanks to Him! I'm trying not to be too over-zealous. I'm not a religious fanatic. But, there are things in life that are beyond explanation and comprehension, and can't be refuted by science. That's all.
If this helps just one person, than it's worth airing this post. I'd like to say, again, my deepest apologies to those I may have hurt or ridiculed, I'm deeply sorry.
Wishing everyone a Happy Holiday and safe, wonderful New Year! And whomever or whatever you believe, if you believe or not, know that you're still loved!
Peace,
E
